Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
ughhh!
Didn't get my summer internship!! So disappointed!! Now what am i going to do during the summer????????
i really thought i HAD this!! :( :(
i really thought i HAD this!! :( :(
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Senior Year is going to be AWESOME now that...
I WON!
Historian Class of "10!! :D :D
I bet out Gustavo, a gay guy. Don't get me wrong i love the gays but woooh i kinda had a doubt that i would get this! I'm so excited! Finally i WIN something!! :D :D
& something so huge!
Makes me accomplished with my life...sort. Enough to be happy. Work my butt off and actually start living and doing something i enjoy :):)
So happy my friends came through with the whole voting.
Especially with the whole mix up and what not! <3 Love them and owe them so much!!
Historian Class of "10!! :D :D
I bet out Gustavo, a gay guy. Don't get me wrong i love the gays but woooh i kinda had a doubt that i would get this! I'm so excited! Finally i WIN something!! :D :D
& something so huge!
Makes me accomplished with my life...sort. Enough to be happy. Work my butt off and actually start living and doing something i enjoy :):)
So happy my friends came through with the whole voting.
Especially with the whole mix up and what not! <3 Love them and owe them so much!!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
DETERMINED!
New diet!
Life would be better if i could just commit!
After today, after this post, i am resolved to Diet!
And to actually complete my diet :):)
I think i can do it.
Off to run 245,846,147 laps :D :D
Life would be better if i could just commit!
After today, after this post, i am resolved to Diet!
And to actually complete my diet :):)
I think i can do it.
Off to run 245,846,147 laps :D :D
Hopeful
Fighting against my better judgement to not do something utterly STUPID! I am disappointed in my self for letting my feelings get in between myself and my problems. Allowing others to brake me down! It's not fair! Mmmm but who do i have to blame except myself?
I wish i could throw everything on someone but i know there is no point in that. It is all on me this time.
So no I just hope i can do the RIGHT thing, and not let myself get carried always in this alllll over again. Once is enough, i don't want any more re runs of this episode!
I cant stand getting hurt over the same exact thing! Or the same person! I wish there was an easy way out of all of this!!! Things are more confusing the second time around.
I wish i could throw everything on someone but i know there is no point in that. It is all on me this time.
So no I just hope i can do the RIGHT thing, and not let myself get carried always in this alllll over again. Once is enough, i don't want any more re runs of this episode!
I cant stand getting hurt over the same exact thing! Or the same person! I wish there was an easy way out of all of this!!! Things are more confusing the second time around.
Monday, May 18, 2009
blahh :/
I'm annoyed NOW, more than ever!! Words can not Describe that...Honestly, who can i trust? Who really loves me? Who really CARES? Im confused and I'm starting to have feeling for all the wrong people. This isn't how its suppost to be! I want to be normal. Not some weirdo who gets hurt. Worst of all i think i put myself out there TOO get hurt! Trusting the wrong people, just to feel accepted and to not lose the people who were Once my Friends. Someone who was once there doesn't mean that they will always be there. People change. I accept that now. Once again I'm too late.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Mother's Day
I saw this, ahahaha! Woooh i guess I'm not alone in that! Well, i cant say i LOVE my mother for not loving my father. but god damn, i must say she should get a prize or crown or something for being able to fool someone so well into thinking that they are actually in love with them! Heck she even has me thinking that she is in love with him! That thought just came to me as i was reading this on Post secrets right now...
WIDE Awake
Monday! :] ewy, wait...i do not even like Mondays! Wtf? Well yesterday was kinda fun. I saw Star Trek! AHAHAHA i know right?! Wow! I was the one saying that it was going to suck and that i was never, no matter what, going to go see that movie, well guess what, i went! and i loved it! Yup, it was surprisingly good. That should teach me to never judge a movie by it's, uhh, preview, how dumb, that's what they are for! Ha, either way, i saw Ghost of Girlfriends Past. That movie, honestly, SUCKED!
It was nothing like how i was expecting it to be! I am more than disappointed, mostly because i was watching it alone and seeing a click flick alone kinda sucks! I was thinking about someone the whole time :] i miss them<3 summer better be like how i plan! Even though i am preparing myself for disappointment. i just hope it's everything i hope for, or even BETTER! :] Time to be more optimistic! Yup, I'm ready! Summer of '09. Bahahah that is lame!
I'm debating on going to school tomorrow, i KNOW for a fact that i am going to be too tired to wake up. And i might be able to go to the Getty if i miss. But then again, it would suck for me because i would miss my meeting with the mean a$$ lady and lose my spot in the senior cabinet.There would go my spot as Historian! All my hard work for nothing! That would suck. But what if it is already too late and I'm disqualified for having that stupid fail in Perkins! Grrrr, i would beat someone with a bat! Or with a pencil, which ever is closer at hand.
It was nothing like how i was expecting it to be! I am more than disappointed, mostly because i was watching it alone and seeing a click flick alone kinda sucks! I was thinking about someone the whole time :] i miss them<3 summer better be like how i plan! Even though i am preparing myself for disappointment. i just hope it's everything i hope for, or even BETTER! :] Time to be more optimistic! Yup, I'm ready! Summer of '09. Bahahah that is lame!
I'm debating on going to school tomorrow, i KNOW for a fact that i am going to be too tired to wake up. And i might be able to go to the Getty if i miss. But then again, it would suck for me because i would miss my meeting with the mean a$$ lady and lose my spot in the senior cabinet.There would go my spot as Historian! All my hard work for nothing! That would suck. But what if it is already too late and I'm disqualified for having that stupid fail in Perkins! Grrrr, i would beat someone with a bat! Or with a pencil, which ever is closer at hand.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Have not blogged in a while! Been to busy with wedding, school, and "friends." I have been thinking a lot lately about growing up and that idea scares me. It is mothers day today, i wonder what my mother is thinking about...or what she is thinking. I always think that on this day. Mmm, well everyday! Besides that she is a very confusing women. I wish i knew her better and I could understand her more than i do now; i hardly know her now! I think that if i knew her better then i would actually feel sorry for her, and the fact that her marriage is ruined and that she usually never feels happy. Right now i feel like she put all these problems on herself. i shouldn not think that way.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Spire of the moment...
I want to be able to live in that awesome spire of the moment life! I look at what i have and sure, I'm happy. But at the same time, i feel like I'm missing out on a lot of important experiences!
But anyway...right now im just focusing on the REAL real...good stuff! Planning a wedding! :D :D Super excited about that! I have to put my priorities straight and realize what i have to get done! Which is sooo much by the way! ahaha :)
I just want to have enought in life to not be able to say...im BORED! ahaah that gets hard sometimes! Well as for now...mmm i have a lot to THINK about...that may not be what i want..but thats more than i can ask for...wait wtf! No! that doesn't even make sence!!
"Most are afraid others might find out who they are before they find it out themselves."
I live off quotes like these!
Wise quotes i try to come up with..but instead i end up sounding stupid! ah. ah, HA!
Thank god for the Music in my life<3
But anyway...right now im just focusing on the REAL real...good stuff! Planning a wedding! :D :D Super excited about that! I have to put my priorities straight and realize what i have to get done! Which is sooo much by the way! ahaha :)
I just want to have enought in life to not be able to say...im BORED! ahaah that gets hard sometimes! Well as for now...mmm i have a lot to THINK about...that may not be what i want..but thats more than i can ask for...wait wtf! No! that doesn't even make sence!!
"Most are afraid others might find out who they are before they find it out themselves."
I live off quotes like these!
Wise quotes i try to come up with..but instead i end up sounding stupid! ah. ah, HA!
Thank god for the Music in my life<3
Friday, May 1, 2009
mayo!
Wooooh! New month....AS of TODAY! :D
It's crazy how this month went by so fast! Out of every year so far, this one has seen to be going by the fastest. It's incredible, one more month and we're going to be half way done with it...and HELLO 2010!! I expect great things this up coming year. Graduation, weddings, parties, meeting new people, seeing old friends<3 i hope I'm not getting too ahead of myself. But in simple words, I'm exxxxcited!
It's crazy how this month went by so fast! Out of every year so far, this one has seen to be going by the fastest. It's incredible, one more month and we're going to be half way done with it...and HELLO 2010!! I expect great things this up coming year. Graduation, weddings, parties, meeting new people, seeing old friends<3 i hope I'm not getting too ahead of myself. But in simple words, I'm exxxxcited!
Internship
Typing essay for CRF Internship! Hard work writing about yourself! Really made me think twice about what i wanted to put. I wrote the essay months ago! Hahahaha funny what i thought back then :) but I'm learning new things so it's time for an update!
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